UPDATE!!!!

haha.. surprised?

Its been months that I've staying off from blogging so now I'm back!(a while)

anyway, just telling you all I'm still healthy and still alive ^^

my sis bought a new handphone: the HTC Sensation which is currently the best smartphone in the market now hehe.. (you know, I'm a phone-craze XD)

school-life is getting pretty busy.. and boring.. People tend to ignore me now.. or is it just my imagination.. I'm not as close to them like last time =(

tata

Part 2

Hmm.. I think I realised the true feeling inside me =)

I want to be alone with nature.. but I cannot give it up.. or to say.. I don't want to be alone =.="

Weird right? How do I want to be alone while I don't want to? haha that's me @.@

I feel very calm and my mind without sorrow whenever I stand near the rain alone.. without anyone near me.. without anyone in the range of my sight, I feel great! lol
(whoever who sometimes sees me standing near the rain, you'll know what I mean XD)

that's what been bothering me.. that's why sometimes I feel like dropping my tears (on purpose) sometimes.. I'm crazy right?

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this feeling

I'm not sure what is happening to me.. this feeling of depression.. Is it stress? I don't think so..
But what is it? I feel lacking the thing called LOVE.

"LOL" some might give this expression.. and honestly I felt like hugging someone and cry.. but hugging someone requires love.. the love between families.. friends.. the loved one..

Nah you all should know I'm single until now.. so I never had a chance to hug anyone.. haha..

my families? I've already acted like a real man(with childish thoughts) when I was so young.. hugging my parents is the last thing I would do.. and to imagine crying in front of them.. =.= my siblings? NO WAY! I would literally die by their hands.. my elder sisters treated me like a perverted wolr when I was so young.. so now we almost had a limit to our closeness.. i that is the word to describe..

my father do hug me sometimes.. but that only gives me a small decrease in my depression..

my grannies? nope.. I can't hug them tight I think..

I dunno why.. I just can't hug anyone.. everything is by myself.. (and dude I'm not a psycho that will hug himself and cry right?)

Friends? definitely a no! come on.. If I hug a guy.. people will think I'm a gay.. If I hug a girl.. either gossips will be spreaded or I'll suffer punches from their boyfriends.. haha..

and to say about friends.. how many friends do I have? a lot? to me.. its only a few.. And up until now, I cannot trust anyone as much.. (yup Hui Yee.. I'm still the same old me).. no one in this world is able to gain my full trust. because I felt sick of being hurt by it again..

I hate smiling.. but yet I need to be like that.. I always look cheerful on the outside.. but inside-..............

everything is still own my own and God.. I sought peace when I'm with Him.. and I hope I can submit this feeling of mine to God.. and forget it..

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Off

I'm not going to use my computer unless necessary for this year.. So you wouldn't expect any updates for a long time here.. =)

Ethan the Music lover XD

No Talent

Yeah he said I have no talent in music

I'm the one who lead the choir group in my school..

I'm the one using my hearing ability to improve and harmonise "stand by me" song for our grandmother. And the credit goes to the eldest among us siblings, my sis.

I'm the one who've not seen any songs tutorial and learn from them. I learn by music scores and no matter how I will follow that path.

I'm not even grade 1 yet, though I can't detect any chords for a song, I can play the full melody(original tone) by hearing and practicing just a bit. In fact, I can create my very own melody(Right Hand). This means that I can create songs! And I'm still just few months touching my piano.

If I managed to learn music in a proper way and to be exact, if I have been educated in music since I'm young.. I dare say that I might be another music prodigy in this world.

And to say that I'm not really interested in contemporary music, that I'm much more attracted to classics, but do you think a not-even-grade-1 fella can play all these songs? Susah nak harap la..

Quality is always better than Quantity. Though honestly my eldest sister knows how to play more complete songs than me, my tempo and smoothness of a song won't lose. Learning through music scores is a hard way than just follow a pianist's hand running in a piano on Youtube. But this will eventually pay off one day. While through scores, I will master sight-reading one day.. So don't think that early achievement will be far ahead compared to the slow one.

That's all.
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Wrong Choice

Yeap indeed I've made a wrong choice in studying STPM, but that's life! I'm just gonna stand up and run the whole race. I know I can do it, but Dentistry? Hmm...

It all started when SPM results came out. Everyone is starting to have their career be their goals so they took the subjects they're interested in. Me? Nah.. How can I be a musician?(yeah my primary goal was to become a musician, a pianist, a maestro....) eyes that stated "You have no talent" glared at me.. Yeah I'm not as talented but yeah, I'm better than a lot people too. Never know when you never tried eh? haha but I have no chance on it.

"Music as a career for men? You won't earn enough living for a family."
"There are a lot of talented people other than you, you won't survive."

Thus it was my farewell to music education, then I thought "I love electronics, computer, programs... Hmm.. Programming should be fun!" So this is my second choice, Programming. I got interested on how computers, programs etc work.

"A lot of people are taking these.. You must be very successful to earn a lot!"

HANCUR! haha so my mom kept saying that Dentist is a good job. Well obviously, because she went there every few weeks(maybe?) and got charged for more than RM200. Then yeah that's when I thought.. Okay since I like to help people out.. and I love Red Crescent so much.. I should try this, and I made Dentistry my goal now.

And because of Dentistry I must take STPM.

Now, I'm getting the feel that I shouldn't be here, in STPM. But half a year is already gone. I'm now stuck.. I can't turn back now.. Dentistry all the way now.. =)

I feel guilty. If I am really decisive I would've made a bold choice at going for music or tech educations.. I will be even more happier that way.

Lets hope I can endure this choice for life that I've made now.. I can do it! =)


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Fun day

30th of November 2010

Today I went to college to do my group experiments with Hui Yee, Simone, Janice and Vivian.(The only guy here XD)

Yup it was fun, since I am the only guy there.. Got used lol. They asked me to use my MANPOWAA~(man's strength) to help them to collect soils. haha

Besides that, Vivian brought a 小强(xiu qiong, in cantonese, a name for cockroach) for the insect collection assessment. From that I realised how cute is a cockroach, despite how dirty it is. hehe

After the experiment, we went out for lunch, leaving Vivian alone =( (sorry Vivian XD) and played pool XD

On the way back, I went to KLCC to see whether the HTC HD7 are there to be viewed. Alas I saw one at the HTC store. The "promoter/manager/whoever he is" was holding one and I was like: "Whoah, is it THE HD7?" and he smiled nodding his head. My face was covered with smile when I saw how fast the phone is ^^ Definitely must win this phone in the contest! =)

I saw the iPad too~!! Wow I'm amazed at the smoothness of that device. It's so great I couldn't describe lol.

That's it for today..
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